chinese new year hasn't end, but my working life begins.

Happy Chinese New Year to all! 

 

*spot my bitchy face*

hello, back from the furnace kampong! indeed, malaysia is hot like a furnace!

i miss my facebook, my blog, my air-conditioner, my bed, my room.. and my DOG*bubble*

kampong life is bored but healthy. there didn't provide any computers and air-conditioner. although it doesn't seem as beautiful and peaceful as those countryside of england as i fascinated, but it does a warm place which nothing can disturbs my equanimity. 

hmmph, everything goes fine and fun, except i meet my uncle.
i was so agitate when i saw my uncle. he's nice, he brought me to Pulau Redang when i'm still a child. he taught me dive and taught me hike. he taught me everything that my parents didn't dare to bring me and teach me.  everything changed, as a matter happened.

god doesn't bless him well, he had stroke, 
he couldn't speak fluently when he talked, he couldn't move easily when he want,
he was incontinent when he shop with his daugter, he felt embarrassing and shame 
but he can do nothing bout that. his eldest daughter is just 15 year-old, 
and his youngest son is just 2 year-old. he can't barely take care for his family now. 
i feel so defenceless, as my mom told me, maybe he can't pass this year. *bitterly*

forget bout that..

sighs, new year hasn't end, but i have to work now.

damnnit, i feel so unfair  that everyone *friends and family* , they are still having fun, 
but i must have to work now! garrrrr, i wanna quit from this life, but my mom refuse to answer me. hmmph, imma mommy's girl, so i can't against my mom to achieve something that i desire.
for instance, i can't make a choice about my course, mom is always right, 
she always makes a sane choice for us. awww, never mind, at least i learnt many experiences that one's can't study in those air-conditioner rooms.

okay, i found that my facebook had been burst by my friends, 
it's like 120++ notifications and all that. oh my gawd, i never know that im that popular.
umm, i attempt to reply all those comments but frankly, i failed.
nonetheless, i need to appreciate my friends for caring me. *obeisance*

oh yea, i've been influenced by Ityra, Wern and Ellie. 
haze han, accosts a guy unexpectedly. hmmph, that isn't accost by the way. 
he is a complete stranger in my life, but his outfit attracted me and imma like adore him(?).
i don't know, i still don't know how to distinguish those complicated feelings.
he's well and nice, but he resigned after chinese new year.
i feel so lugubrious about his leaving. sighsss, imma exile of love storiess. 
*repent* i haven't get his number yet btw!