if you were given a chance

Updates for my job offer! Yes, Eff Jay rang me this afternoon, telling me I'm officially accepted and going to commence my work on next Monday. I'll be definitely lying to you if I tell you I do not give a shit about this new job. Hey, of course I do, I'm a fresh graduate, okay? Give me an example who doesn't give a shit of their first job. So, I might update here about my working life soon if my time allows to. 

Okay, I have some thoughts creeping in my mind again, and yes, all these fancy thoughts love to pay me a visit at night, particularly midnight. I really hope I can change this bad habit after I start working as I still hope I can still function well the next day. This time, the thought of 'reborn' is growing. I do have to say, I have watched a lot of Chinese fiction on this subject. People reborn, time travelling and also, they were offered to go back to their younger age, exactly like how a reset button to your life. It's not the first time I think about this. If I was given a chance to travel back to my younger age, what would I do? Will I accept it happily and change whatever flaws I have now? I would say a yes before I have some conversations with my friends earlier on. 

What made me change my mind? I believe everyone has flaws in their life, something they would want to change if they have the chance. Yes, I do have this thought sometime, especially I'm weak and lost. But hey, we should accept who we are, right? All the obstacles we are struggling make us the better people we are today. We've been learning how to deal and overcome this hardship all this while. So, does putting a reset button to your life make you better and happier? I can't give you a concrete answer, but I can guarantee that we are more stronger than we think. Tell me, are you happy now? Don't you feel content when you have friends and family with you? If I was given the chance to travel back, yes, I would study harder and be the smartest kid in class, enroll into a well-known University and made my parents proud of me. Just think of it makes us happy, right? Now see and think clearly, if you study harder and enroll into a well-known University, will you still get to know your closest friends now? Those who always by your side regardless of anything, those who offer you warm hugs and pat you in their shoulders. People is a greedy mankind, we always wish for more and regret after a decision has made. Here, I am telling myself to be content and satisfied what I'm having now. Although I lost him, he will watch me up there. And I have mom now, I would do whatever it takes to take care of her and love her as I promised him. 

Dad, I miss you a lot.