Bad temper, with a soft hearted underneath

Honestly, I think that I am quite bitchy sometime in certain ways. I have a really bad temper which I couldn't hold it, so I always have lots of quarrels and fights with family and friends. For the one who cross over my boiling point, I will deliberately speak something harsh to them and let them broken hearted. Frankly, I've always regret for what I did to them, but I am those who can't easily apologize to people who I care the most. It leads a bad shattered gap between me and those who I cherish. I try so hard to utter a 'sorry' to them.. But I often ended up with an awkward silence or turn it more serious. The way that I speak to them is too vulgar and it is a completely imperfect way to speak with someone you care.. I couldn't say sorry in front of them, so I'm using words for representing what I felt in heart.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for what I did, and cause you harmful. I'm sorry that I disappointed you once and once, and thank you for forgiving me everytime. I'm not sure that i was too late to say my apology, but we can try to fix and work it out together. And the last thing I wish to say to you is, I love you!